I am screwed just because I had the past that I don't even want remember!

It's time to let go of the past and start focusing on creating what's going on and can be done in a positive light in THE PRESENT.It's time for you to start recognizing and ACCEPTING the beauty of things THE WAY THEY ARE.

And it's time for you to STOP anxiously worrying and stressing out over how things have been in the past.You can learn lessons from the past, but you can't change it.That's why, on a deeper level...The sooner you can let go of the part of you that wants to CONTROL what has happened and how things have unfolded... then the sooner you're going to be able to let go and start changing things for the better in THE PRESENT.

So...

Did I hang out with the man I was seeing too soon and change the dynamic of my relationship early on?Maybe. But that's in the past.I can't change things back to the way they were.But I CAN make things EVEN BETTER and different than they were before... if you'rewilling to let go of your fear and anxiety and get to the place where you start DOING WHAT WORKS with a woman.

Hint - what works with a woman is NOT trying to TALK TO HER about all the things that have happened in the past.

Like Hell!

It's hard to accept, but I can't change the past. I can't go back and manipulate things to the way I wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But I can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, I will make mistakes. And yes, I will have bad days - but as long as I let the past go, I'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of me. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day I will learn something so that I keep growing to be a better person.

I am today because of the choices I made yesterday.

And I won't look back. And I won't regret.
Though hurts like hell.
Someday I will forget.

Aja-aja fighting

Sarahsan 14Jan08

Dia Di Tempat Teratas

Reminder for myself.

Hidup ini ada naik ada turunnya. Saat kita di atas, ada orang lain yang di bawah, saat kita di bawah, orang lain pula di atas. Ada suka ada duka. Terkadang kita berfikir kenapa perlu melalui saat-saat duka. Kenapa kita yang perlu melalui saat-saat getir itu. padahal, kita insan biasa tidak lebih tidak kurang dari sudut orang-orang di sekeliling kita. Jangan pernah kita hitung setiap duka lara dan kesedihan kerana perlu kita pasakkan sesuatu yang ditentukan

Why we have to pretend

Let me asked you things,

What would you do when you have your boyfriend around? Would you dressed up nicely and take your best shoes out of the box? What would it be if he asked you to go out? Would you say no as you have homework to do? Would you take your money and go to grocery store to fill your fridge? Would you spray flower scent so your living room smells good? Would you let him enter your bathroom if you haven’t had a time to brush it before? Would you showed him your full-dirty-dishes kitchen, or you would wash it all just before he arrives? Would you pretend your home is your real home though you think its all sucks matters? Would you treat your maid nicely when she broke your favorite mug in front of him? Would you say “Sorry, have no small change” when a beggar knock your door? Would you hold your hick up as you don’t want to look silly of the creepy sound? Would you mind to stop your talking when it’s time to pray? Do you think he’ll fine with that even when you do so? Do you consider he’ll understand?

Now when you’re marrying him for a year or two, will your clothes remain used shirts or you’re still well-dressed for him? Would you forgive him each day when he throw his socks as he like after work, or you simply take those pair and said “Its okay, hon!” Would you cook him his favorite meal even when you’re so not cooking? Would you have him around when you’re feeling blue and mad? Would you forgive him when he made a mistake or two? Would you still love him even when he’s old, sick, and disgusting? Would you wrap your arms around him when he cried? Would you apologize even when you’re so right? Would you still follow him when he said “Come with me?” Would you stay when he asked you to leave? Would you tried to open the door once again? Would you still believe him after the affair? Would you give him a second chance? Would you say “I love you” even when he’s so terribly jerk? Would you mind to say “I used to love you for so many things, and I still love you even when so many things don’t remain the same?” Would you show him how to love unselfishly even when there’s no love left for you?

Have it ever crossed your mind that in the day when you tied up your self in to marriage option, you risking the rest of your life for him? Have you prepared your self for the worst? Did you take a short course to be a wife and a mother? Have you passed the exam of being grown up and ready for lifetime commitment? Have it ever crossed your mind that probably in a year or two, your love flame will possibly died, then you probably think “If only I…” Would you still think that you did the right thing when you have that feeling by the end and saying “You’re right, I’m not prepared?”

quote from someone.

Sarahsan 9Jan08

The sweetest thing that the guys can do..

Smell her hair....
Talk to her in movie theatres....
Hold her hand while u talk....
Tell her she looks pretty....
Look her in the eye when u talk to her....
Tell her stupid jokes....
Just walk around w/ her....
Look at her like shes the only girl you see...
Tickle her Even if she says stop....
When she starts swearing at u, tell her u love her....
Let her fall asleep in ur arms....
Get her mad, then kiss her....
Tease her...
Let her tease u back....
kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her....
Stay up w/ her all night when shes sick....
Watch her favorite movie....
Kiss her forehead....
Write her letters....
If she asks u 2 go 2 a show w/ her, go....
Let her wear ur clothes.....
When shes sad, hang out w/ her....
Buy her ice cream....(i Like )
Let her take all the photos of u she wants....
Kiss her in the rain And when u fall in love w/ her tell her....
what ever she says, just say yes!

My new year resolutions

My New Years resolutions, by sarah san
Local citizen, average rank, age 19 years 10 months and 1 day

1. Stop having lunch or dinner or whatsoever in a public food
2. Never ever again wasting my time to be on time, while others don't
3. Start using my oil pastel again, instead of pencils
4. I will soon achieve self-actualization
5. I will stop thinking so much about sweetalker.
6. I will start thinking about positive things.
7. Getting graduate
8. Save some money, fulfill promises, create a breakthrough, reduce fat (yes way), and do not depending on anyone anyhow, …
9. Buy more books, less outfit, more DVD, less souvenir, more news report, less gossip, more healthy food, less junky, more oxygen, less smoke, more natural, less fake…
10. Trying so hard to achieve all those 1 to 9 resolutions, instead write it down to impresses people.