what I am about to be

A) Being a woman who "gets" certain things about a man that, in turn, gives me the ability to understand what a man is doing and why... and for I am to be the kind of woman in a relationship that will make him KNOW, with his FEELINGS and EMOTIONS, that he wants to be close and connected with me, and only me.

Or...

B) Being a woman who just doesn't understand where he is coming from and why everything has to be so difficult... and sensing that he isn't "there with me"... and not having a man who "feels it" for me on an intense-passionate- gut-reaction-emotional-gotta-be-with-me-or-else kind of level. And after being so depressed of many things about our relationship that seems t0-not-work-out kinda’ thing, I am now, being convinced that he would do up for everything to turn back the score. So back then, he’s the one who are dealing with all the Super-boyfriend he is now.

I am okay with that